In the fifth and final episode of the TRUTH SEEKER SERIES, we dive into something that might be scary, might be 'too-much', might be hard to hear -- but is ABSOLUTE TRUTH about how QUICKLY the enemy can work to destroy our lives from the INSIDE out. How he uses our ignorance to do his dirty work, and how we can fight against His plans by putting on the armor of God.
In this interview with my long-time, trusted friend, Ashley DeAnda we learn how dangerous practices like yoga, meditation, 'universal enlightenment', and crystals can really be...
How she was searching for healing and spiritual guidance in all the wrong places and how Satan was poised and ready to offer her his bag of tricks. We go into how she navigated the scariest experience of her life to recognize her unknown sin, repent, and replace her beliefs from WORLDLY to GODLY. How her only salvation came from Christ.
In this story, you will see how God uses our ignorance and brokenness to not only bring US back into His light but also to bring others with us. Through Ashley's courage, we are able to see more clearly than ever so we can take the journey from ignorance to Godly bliss.
Stay until the end to learn how you can use all of these lessons for your growth and for the good of God's Kingdom. We are here together, now, on purpose. I believe that God has brought you to this podcast and specifically, this episode - divinely.
While it scares me to bring forward truth of this magnitude, I must be obedient. I know that God has a BIG PLAN for why He is preparing his daughters for battle.
I'm here for it.
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FULL EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION:
Hey friends. Welcome to today's episode. Literally, I'm recording this intro for you today on the day that this episode is due, such as life, right? Distance learning, kids, all the things. But here we are today in the fourth episode of the truth seeker series, I am bringing to you, my friend, like literally for decades, decade long, friend, Ashley Deanda, who is a follower of Jesus Christ. She's a wife, she's a mother of two littles she's homeschooling. Ashley is just incredible. And she has experienced something that I think is so important and critical for you guys to hear through just tapping into personal development and then getting a little bit deeper into some new age philosophy. She slid down a very steep slope, very quickly that left her, searching. It, left her in a very dangerous place with actual darkness of the world, which I'm going to let her share with you.
And she had to go through that experience in order for God to use that for good God is so good. And he's used what she went through and the truths that she revealed that God revealed through her experiences to bring here to all of you today. And this is going to wrap up our series. So while this is a long episode, I want you guys to buckle down, dig in posit in the middle and come back tomorrow if you need to. Okay. But hang out until the very end where I recap for you. Exactly what to do with all of this information from the truth seeker series, let's go lift.
Welcome. In fact, The Mompreneur Mastermind Show is where we choose to run insanely successful, passive income businesses that light us up while consuming iced coffee, braless and flawless, and maybe breaking it down to some gangster rap while our kids aren't looking. Did we just become best friends? Yes. Yes we did. Hey, I'm Stefanie Gass, six figure corporate exact turned top 1% network marketer turn podcaster. I believe when we let God light our path, we experienced true miracles. Welcome sister. Let's get pumped up for today.
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You are going to love this and you're going to love the price point even more. Thanks, Andrea, for hooking up my girls. Hi, Ashley. Welcome to the show. Thank you for having me. You're welcome. I'm so excited too. So full circle moment. You guys, Ashley's the friend that reached out to me about the Enneagram and I don't know dates. So forgive months, eight months, six months ago. And you guys know I was totally triggered by that because my ego and self was telling me that I was okay to use this tool, that this tool was okay for me to use for my clients. And so I kind of went off on a rant and poor Ashley, like poor, poor Ashley, and y'all know me. Like sometimes I don't like anyone we're humans, right? Like I didn't filter this through God. I didn't pray over it.
I just reacted why we are humans. And so that whole thing went down, right? Ashley, and then months went by before Ashley, like she was bringing something to me that God had asked her to bring to me, but God is so good. And when we are faithful and obedient, what happens? Ashley came full circle. It came full circle. I messaged her and I'm like, girl, I am so sorry. Like God has revealed some things to me about myself. Like, Hey, I shouldn't have reacted that way. B the Enneagram has since been revealed to me as maybe not something that is dangerous for everyone, if they want to use it and discern and have that conversation with God, but who am I to lead them down that path? Because it is something that can be dangerous. And we talked about that in the last true seeker series.
So you guys can, we're not going to get into any gram today, but the point of what I'm saying is God is so good and how he works. And so I messaged Ashley. We had this big conversation and then a couple more months went by, I think. And I reached out to Ashley for some godly sisterly advice, over something happening in my family. And we just had this beautiful conversation and God planted in my heart to do the true seeker series in the moment with Ashley via text, we're voicing, right? Ashley I'm like, and then I heard Holy spirit say, do the true, see your series. And Ashley was the first person that God told me to invite onto the show. And I've saved her for last on purpose because Ashley's story is something supernatural. Ashley's story is something that we don't want to hear.
We don't want to think that we're living in a ball and broken world. We don't want to look. We want to close our eyes. Just like I wanted to close my eyes to the dangers of the Enneagram, but God has called us up, right sisters. Yes. Yes, definitely. We are here. Fourth episode in and God is calling us to open our eyes, to speak out, to be his, his voices here on earth to be his warriors. And Ashley's story might freak out a little bit, but it's freaking you out for the good of Christ so that we will have discernment and truth as moms, as wives, as friends. And so I'm kind of disclaiming this right now because I'm, her story is not easy to hear, but I know that God asked me to share it with you guys. And he asked Ashley to reach out to me six to eight months ago, because she was always meant to share. She was always meant to be on this show. She was always meant to come here on and have this platform because her message needs to be heard. And I'm just going to cry because I feel like I didn't do you a disservice. I did you a disservice eight months ago when God brought you to me. And again, I repent for that. We are all learning. We're all growing, but I love you. And you're here now, and God is so good. And so anyway, I'm gonna shut up, Ashley.
I love you. And I want you to start us off by sharing who you are and then share your story with us. This is gritty. I hope you guys are paying attention.
Well my name is Ashley and I know stuff I had done the intro. So I'm just gonna kind of jump into what happened. Basically I've, you know, I've known Steph for a long time and I have learned so much from her outside of spiritual stuff, like, as she said in her truth secret series, she's just been an overachiever, a very motivating person. And she is spot on. She was so helpful in the first years of meeting her and helping me with so many things. And it drove me to also, I guess, look for truth in many things, but in a way I had already had this self-help mentality and I wasn't looking to God for self-help. I was looking to a lot of books, which I think I hear all the time and I put on this series. So I was reading so many books just put out to the public by very, very well known people. And that was a huge deception from the world right off the bat. Number of question.
When was that Ashley that you started down the self help.
I think that could have even gone back to high school as a young, young teenager,
You were raised Catholic, right?
Correct. I knew about God. I knew about Jesus and Holy spirit. However you know, I was kind of taught you know, do your sacraments and you're kind of covered like you do those and you're good. And we believe, and I did. And so I did not think I could stray. And, and a lot of people know there's more supernatural to the world and you don't always see that or hear about it in the church. And I, wasn't always caring about spiritual warfare. Yeah.
Yeah. So you grew up Catholic and you have this, do you ever,
I feel like you have true relationship with Christ, even though that we had the religion, because I think there's a difference between I'm religious and I have true complete Holy spirit relationship. Did you ever have that moment before this house? No, I did think, I thought I knew him and I thought I had that I a hundred percent believed that I, I was good. I went to church, I talked to him and I prayed, but it was not throughout the day about many things. It was a repetitive type prayer on our father, an occasional thank you. And it helped me when I need it, but it was not a relationship. It was not what I have now. It was surface level. Okay. So you get into all self-help and when did it really get intense? So talk to me about that January. Take me through that January timeframe. What was that? 2019.
Yeah. Yeah. So that's been in my wife. I had already read so many self help books. I had already went to school for mental health, join the military for mental health. I had already had a lot of background in how to help yourself mentally. And there was always a spiritual aspect that I felt a need for. And in 2018 being a clinical therapist, I was feeling overwhelmed. There is a lot of burnout and hearing a lot of depressing things and helping people through, you know, divorce, trauma, child abuse, addiction. There is so much negativity and it can be very overwhelming. And I had always had very easy go to self-help type of, I would say, modalities to go to and they were just basic stuff, go for a run, exercise, eat healthy you know, do puzzles do something I enjoy swim and play with the kids and stuff.
But in 2019 I had a unique feeling about something new and I just knew something was gonna happen this year. And I said, I'm gonna do diets. No, everyone's like new year, new me. Let's, let's stick with another diet. And I was like, you know, I always ate, okay. But I was like, I'm just going to eat healthier. It's a new year. I'm going to also try yoga and meditation because I've learned to recommend this to my clients in, from the military school, from social work school, from counseling. I have recommended this to so many clients, which I have also repented for. And I said, I'm going to try it. Like, I'm feeling stressed, I'm feeling overwhelmed. And so I did. And you know, step is very like, what I've learned is, you know, you go all in, you put in everything like you push yourself.
And when I commit to stuff now as what I do, so I was fully committed and I just dumped in and I said, you know, even if you poses and all, you know, clear my mind for five to 10 minutes, it wasn't meditating on God's word, which I know is good. It was clearing my mind or doing a meditation where I listened to someone, to me through a forest and feel calm where I'm not in control of my mind, but someone else has told me what to do with my mind. So that's what I began to do in January, 2019. And I did that.
Did that tell me, did you ever, did you ever for a moment before you got into the yoga and the meditation think that that could possibly be dangerous?
No, because I, I have had migraines my whole life and I also was diagnosed with a kidney disease and I thought, wow, I have some health issues, maybe everything that I'm learning just from online, nothing, you know, detailed, but what people are saying in society, what's on magazine covers, like, you know, meditate, do yoga. Like what's put on the news, what's put on our apps and in between commercials for our kids' games, pictures, and I just thought everyone is doing this. This is the way that I can help cure myself. I cure my kidney disease by focusing on this, putting positive energy and not seeking God. I was thinking, this is a good thing. This is how I can share myself as like a mini God. I thought it was possible. And I thought that was the way.
So you never thought it was dangerous. And I think it's because the world is normalizing very much normalizing the way that the enemy control.
What are mind? Yes. We have been groomed humans since birth. Okay. Literally and not to get into rabbit hole stuff. I get it. But if you look at Any Disney movie, if you watch the news at all, the things that we are learning since birth are preparing us to just mindlessly, not okay. Yes, this is normal. This is fine.
And you hit it with that Disney thing, because I didn't think that impacted me psychologically when I was going to let my children watch it. There was a part that triggered me because it said the, the, the father line was telling the child, like, you know, look up to the stars. You'll always find meals, see meals, speak to you. And then throughout the movie, he's looking to speak with his dead father. And I also talk about in my testimony videos, that I also was grieving a loved one. My grandmother who passed. And that made me think, well, we could still talk to our dead loved ones and we don't understand what's being planted at those times. And how, when my children did start watching, I had to say, guys, this is actually not real. You cannot do that. Like, this is not okay. You know, Oh, I saw a meme yesterday, Ashley that had two pictures. And it said how you were introduced to death as a child. And it showed the land before time. And the baby's kissing, the mama who's died.
And what are we? Four, five, and they're traumatizing us. And then the one above, it said how your kids were introduced to death, traumatic death. And it's the dad's Simba from the lion King, with the dad. And he's kissing the dad. And I'm like, what is wrong with this picture? Why is it been why we explained only accepted that traumatizing our children from a young age is okay. And then teaching truly dangerous modalities, such as talking to the dead and all the other crazy things. And you guys were not getting into that right now. But the point of what I'm saying is that there, Ashley never for a moment said, this could be dangerous because the world told her otherwise, which is why it's incredibly important before you do anything in your life that you bring it to God, because I truly believe he would have revealed to Ashley.
This is dangerous. It's not, it's actually a crazy story that I want to hear your full on experience. Going from January to may. I was reading the book probably six months ago, the power of now, I just ordered a bunch of books off of thrift books.com. And I didn't know, I'm like, well, this one looks good. Does it dead? And I'm, I'm holding it in my hands. And I begin to read. And the first chapter is talking about how he has an outer body experience, meditating. He goes to the window and all of a sudden he's brushed with this new energy and all these things. I shut the book. I felt really weird. I shut it. I'm sitting by myself on the couch, in the living room. And I looked at the time. I said, Lord, God, I just put my hand on the book, Lord, God, if you don't want me to read this book, please tell me, reveal it to me. And I opened my eyes, Ashley, and the word, no, from now popped off the page in bright white. I threw the book in the trash right there. I was like, I hear you. So God will always reveal. And it may not be that divine, but you'll get the
You'll know. So that's what we should do. But yeah, We don't know what we don't know cause we're humans. So talk to me about what happens. You go down this rabbit hole, I guess, of new age experience talking about what happens. You get into meditation, yoga, how fast it evolve, what were you doing in those times? And then what happened?
It evolves so fast. I have mentioned this lasted about four and a half to five months, like of just fast paced spiraling. So what happened is I just would just look on Pinterest and I would start seeing things, you know, because our phones are very much made to advertise to us what we talk about and stuff. So I was talking about, Oh, hearing and meditating. So I would get these ads for like shock risk stuff, like these beautiful colors. And what can you do with these shock reds? And I wasn't studying, what is this? Where'd it come from? I was just thinking, Oh cool. Like this chakra aligns with this. And so over those four months, I just increased the time that I was spending meditating. And I would write down things that I wanted to learn about. So I didn't do all of these things, but I have a very negative correlation with them.
And that is IB camp became interested in a lot of crystal healing. So I did buy crystals and I didn't know how to use them for healing, but I'm sure I would have went that route as well. I thought they were positive and they would bring good energy. And I started getting into astrology. I had bought some astrology books because I wanted to learn more about that and they didn't read them things to God. I had gotten into I had a family member who has a friend. Who's a psychic, who I met with her. And that I think opened a massive door because you don't know what you're messing with. And over the period of four months, I started off with a couple of minutes of clearing my mind and doing a few yoga poses for exercise for also physical health to where by the four month Mark, I was already at about 50 to 55 minutes of sitting quietly every morning, clearing my mind. I had begun hearing music. Very, it was obviously it was demonic, but it was very beautiful music tones. And I was hearing names and having these types of like visions and very supernatural knowing things that were going to happen. And it was, it progressed so fast.
And you never thought that that was dangerous either. You thought that was from God, right. I'm having these almost premonitions,
Right? Because I was, see, you mentioned earlier, we should pray and seek God. I wasn't asking God about, am I doing something wrong? I was praying a new age type of prayer in every video I would watch. I would just watch it YouTube or talk about their enlightenment. And they would say, Oh, just ask for white light to protect you. Because you know, there can be some negative entities, but they won't do anything, but you need protection. So I would pray. And I even prayed to God. I'd seen our father and I would sit and meditate, but I wasn't asking him for permission. I wasn't asking him for his guidance and his will. I was just saying like that, I'm going to do this, protect me. And here I go, like, not as this bad, not trying to do this, but I'm going to do this. Like I want to do this. And it was taking my will into control and not his will for me. And I think at, at, at a point he was like, that's what you're going to do. I'm giving you two that he still had his hand on me, but he was very much thing you've turned away from me. And I didn't even know see
Is from the light, he's a fallen angel. And so it gets very twisted when people put in the word God, in their YouTube channels, in their enlightenment coaching, in their crystals, in their chakra work. And they're saying, God, Christians and even non-Christians are getting very confused.
Yes. Yeah. That Satan comes as an angel lights. And my first and I would say only out of body experience was around the four month Mark. And I had a moment of, I would say vulnerability. And I went that morning to go meditate in a dark room in the pretzel position. I don't know the terminology. And I, for a moment before I, I had started meditating, I had missed my grandmother. She had passed away and I started to meditate and there just came this feeling over me that I missed her. And I couldn't wait to be with her and see her again. And in that moment of being vulnerable, I shot completely out of my body. It was not, I don't know how else to explain it. It was, I don't know the difference fully of spirit and soul. Like it was, I flew out my body was below me and I was just in lights.
And I think that's part of the deception of, I thought that was God, a hundred percent. I thought, wow, like God is here. And I'm in the moment that that happened. I felt I was being told to be psychic. I found my calling. This is what I was going to do for the rest of my life. I was already having premonitions and knowing things. So I, in that moment, I said, I'm ready in my mind. Like wherever I was, I said, I'm ready. It was like a contract I had met with Satan and didn't even know it. And when I came back into my body, I was just so endorsing, like super blissed out, just, I felt so high and I was crying and I was happy. And I had to explain this to my husband. And I didn't know how because I thought I met God and I was telling him, I met God. Like I was there. I went to like this heavenly place, even though there was nothing there, it was just light. I just had that, knowing that it was heaven. And that's what I was telling him. But it was a complete deception.
What did you say? What did Chris say?
She was so confused. He didn't say that, but I don't know what he was feeling. I had done research online and this is the really creepy part. I think for me is I typed in what happened, what I experienced, what it felt like, it felt like a shooting up. And I came out and everything that I came up with said, I had something called a Kundalini awakening and that this was some type of religious thing. And it happens to a lot of people in India and it comes from culture, the Hinduism and Buddhism. And I was like, wow, this is real. This works. This is how you meet God. This is what people want to do. All these monks are trying to do this. And I didn't even try, like, I just did this for four months, for nine months. And here I am having enlightenment. Like I just, in a way it did feel special because I thought I'm experiencing something that a lot people want to experience. And I'm not even really, I was trying, but I wasn't trying hard. Like I gave commitment. I was showing up, but I wasn't even aiming for that result to come out and have that experience. I was just doing it because I thought everything else happened that way. So that was the worst experience of, okay.
So y'all hear heard that first experience was like a supernatural shooting out. You felt like this was of God from God. And then everything you find online is supporting this. It's supporting this Ashley, keep going, dig in.
It's good. I was clairvoyance and clear audience and this is normal. Okay.
Did you ever have any warning from your family? I know your family is pretty religious. Does anyone ever say Ashley you're dabbling in something dangerous at this point? Were you ever made aware that this could be dangerous?
I don't think they knew how much I was into it because I had mentioned a few times like, Oh yeah, I meditate for mental health. I didn't tell them, Oh, I'm doing this every morning. I'm setting aside this amount of time. I'm reading about it. I'm watching these videos while I do my laundry. Like any idea of how much time I was spending on that. And that's the danger
Slippery slope, because once the world gets a hold of you and gets you intrigued in something dark, which is also something I have to say about all this stuff, it's easy to go into that dark space and just research like a crazy person and be like, you're going into, and what did God say? I do not dwell in the darkness. Get out of that darkness. Don't go there. It's a slippery slope. And that's the danger.
Yes, we can. In our Bible, we're warned about this. However we're not really taught to read our Bibles in the Catholic church that I went to. You know, they would read us if you verses and talk about that. There was a lot of ceremonial stuff, but I did not open my Bible. And a lot of my family they weren't opening their Bibles before. But after that experience, everyone was just confused and we still didn't know what to do. It was a week and a half later when I had meditated during that week and a half and nothing, you know, came came about different. This is where my story takes a very spiritual warfare term. And that is when I sat down for a meditation. One morning, I began clearing my mind and something began to come into my body and I didn't feel it initially.
I didn't know when it was coming in. And honestly I have a feeling that stuff may have came in when I shot out and came back in. I think I potentially brought, stepped back in maybe evil spirits. I don't, I don't know. I think that could have happened as well. But what happened is I sat down to meditate. I closed my eyes sitting again in a yoga pose, pretzel position, hands Palm up. And I cleared my mind and I began to feel something Twitch in my throat. So I thought it was a Twitch. I thought I was relaxed. I then began to feel my jaw and lower and open and my head tilted backward. And it didn't feel forced. So I just thought I'm very relaxed. This never happens. But my jaw is now opening and I just continued to sit. And at that moment, my body began to kind of breathe on its own where my stomach would fuck in really, really deep.
And I'm hearing this new craze also about like breathing techniques and stuff. And I think this could have a connection. Yes. I don't know much about it, but my body was breathing deep deep. And you could see, I can like if someone works, witnessed this, they'd see my rib cage suck and my ribs would be showing it was so deep that I cannot physically do it on my own. And I felt it. And in that moment of the meditation, I began to worry and get afraid. And the fear was creeping in and it was happening pretty fast too. When that saw happened, I felt my mind step back. My mind became foggy and I thought, I'm not doing this, but I also didn't have control of my body. And I didn't feel fully in control of my thoughts. Then my body began to move like a snake.
So it was from the hips up like a snake type motion where my body would move forward and then backward on its own, it was not me moving it. It was a evil spirit. It was a demon or a devil that, that terminology in the King James version Bible. And so these devils or this devil that was in my body was moving it and I had no control. And what kind of sent me into a panic is when it bowed my head to the ground. So still sitting in the same position, this unclean evil spirit bowed my head to the ground. And in that moment, it was saying, you can have whatever you want. You can have money, you can travel the world. You're going to be psychic. You can talk to your grandma, your dead loved ones. You can be whatever, but you just need to bow to me.
So in my videos, the first video I put out, I did not select to share that part. And so I, I spoke about how itself telepathic in my most recent video, I shared the physical demonic possession because it still would telepathic. It was inside of me. And what happened from that moment is my body came upward. And then this demon bowed my head back down again. The second time it was like confirming a worship to Satan. Yeah. I panicked and my alarm went off and I couldn't move. At this point. I was stuck. This, this devil demon was holding me down. A lot of people say they have sleep paralysis and I've had that. And it felt very similar. Except for usually I'm on my back and it's pressing down on my chest this time it was forward and it was in my body and it would not let me get up.
So my alarm is beeping and I'm freaking out and I'm saying, get out, my kids need to wake up for school. They're gonna find me here. They're going to think I'm dead. Am I dying? Like, are you taking my soul? I'm so confused. What happened? I didn't invite you in my body, except for I did by doing this practice. And so after a few seconds, but it felt like eternity, I still, the Beaman leave. The back of my body just comes out of my back of my body and I get up. And I'm just, just shocked. Completely shocked at that point.
So much of your story, Ashley, I like get chills and my fingers are like freezing cold because I'm like, it's like, I'm in a horror movie.
Like, is this truly the world we live in
Ashley, my friend that I have known for decades that was in my wedding that like, I literally know who you are. I would have a hard time believing that, you know, like if I'm not, not anymore, but like a couple of years ago, I'd be like, shoot. Imagine that we believe it either. If I don't know if I would believe that this could happen. But see, I explained this to my husband is I had a fear as a child of this. This was a massive fear. And I don't know if that's why that's what it took for me to come to by the way I have, I don't know, but this is the worst fear that I had in my whole entire life. That Satan has used against me and God has used for his glory and saved me from the, what he had for me to fail and to be destroyed with is what God has used me to come closer to him. And that week is when the spiritual warfare began for my I was questioning what happened. I was never taught Jesus would move my body. I didn't know. I opened doors by doing yoga meditation, by being interested in Reiki and acupuncture, this energy healing, positivity, the universe of people say, I did not realize that I was opening all of these doors, talking to my, my cousin's friend is a psychic having her talk to me about all of this stuff.
I literally myself unintentionally opened the doors. And once I began praying to Jesus, all of those things that I was hearing that were beautiful music that were still very evil and demonic say, you know, coming as an angel of light, it began to turn weird. And I started to hear chanting things that I've never chanted before. I had never heard before. A lot of like I was hearing own, and I never said that I had heard of it before. I knew people would meditate and say that I had never used that while meditating. I was hearing weird, very weird stuff. And I thought, okay, like if this stuff like these things, cause I was differentiating them from Jesus. They want me to go back to doing that. However, I didn't want my body to move. I want control of my body. I want to have the state in what I do.
And at that point I had given it over already. And so when I would pray to Jesus, these evil spirits, these demons devils were big. They began to turn to their real selves and they began harassing me and yelling and screaming. So I would go to sleep and I would just hear screaming in my ear and nothing was there and I would turn over and go to sleep. And I hear his thing and growling and very, very demonic sounds. And it would just range from like a high pitched whistle scream to a very deep, low devil voice. And I began to hear my name called and like horrible things that made me go into a very anxious state a very depressed state, a very worried you know, everyone then was, my family was concerned like, okay, what is happening now? We're confused. This is within a week. And a half of I met God, supposedly through my first out of body experience two a week and a half later, a devil, a demon is controlling my body and I'm being harassed because I'm praying to do this. So it progressed so fast that week and a half. Yeah.
And at this point, like you're like trying to get this evil spirit out of your body. You're realizing that you have messed with the darkness. You're looking for answers, you're seeking answers and all the, while this literal physical possession is fighting against you.
Yes. Like you can't escape me. Yes. I was terrified. I thought, at what point is it going to do it again? Yeah. Like what point is this thing going to move my body? I thought, well, it's come. It's come out of me. So maybe this is all external. Like now there's now these devils and demons. They're just harassing me say, and I don't know, like every, all this evil darkness is harassing me. So I then begin to pray to God. And I start to call church praise and I speak with one. He says, I'll, I'll schedule you for an appointment in two weeks. I'm like, no, I'll be Ted by them. You don't understand this is progressing. I might not be alive. I don't know if I could live like this. I didn't want to commit suicide. But the thought that was, I cannot live with this cross. My mommy. And that has never happened. I called another priest and he says, I could see you in a week. I said, fine. So I took that appointment. And during that next week of complete torture, torment, not being able to eat, losing almost school, I would say a lot of weight a lot. I was down to like, Ooh, I don't even know one number. It was like one 10. It was really my way
Already tiny. It's like you had before, like they going vegan. And like, all of those things are also subsets of like new age philosophy, so dangerous. Okay. Keep going. So you meet with the crease.
So I meet with the priest and it feels very unpersonable the week prior I go to the hospital, I get my head check. I get scans. I'm fine. They say maybe it's mental health. I meet with the priest on Friday and it's very quick, 10, 15 minutes. He says a prayer for me. He mostly heard me talking for 10 minutes and then says, I'll pray for you. Let's say a prayer. I was happy that he prayed, but I didn't feel it was personal. He said he would come bless my home. If I paid on the way out at the front desk. I did that because you know, I needed help from the priest. I began to pull over and weep and cry and pray and talk on. I'm so sorry. Like nobody can help me. I went to the church. This is the person I'm supposed to turn to.
They did not give me a Bible verse. They didn't spend more than 15 minutes with me. What do I do? I am wicked. I know what I've done wrong. I can't do this on my own. I need you. And I need you. And I put all my trust in God and that you're going to save me. And I went home, still hearing things. The next morning I wake up and my friends who is a born again, Christian, text me a message saying she had prayed. She heard my name in her mind just kept coming to her mind. I told her what had happened. And she came over with her Bible and she literally cast this demon out of me. And it wasn't like an exorcism that you'd see in a movie. But we read the Bible. She showed me verses of how this can happen of us having the authority in Jesus's name. And I began to feel physically that I still had a devil in me, a demon and my body after moving around and burning inside of me, I began to have more trauma, be scared but continue through prayer and it left and I felt it leave my body and I was freaking out, but I still had something in there and had no idea that it was still in me. I thought it was all external. But from there, my friend said, you have to stay close to God. You must pray. You must cover yourself in the blood of Jesus.
You must put on the armor of God. You need to know his word. You need to get close to him. You have to have that relationship. Yeah. I have only felt the Holy spirit since then. Yeah. What a beautiful story. I know that's a hard story, but it's also a beautiful story because what you experienced is something that I'm afraid a huge majority of the world is opening up to. And they have no idea because ignorance is bliss and what you've gone through, God has allowed you your hardship to become your testimony. And you're literally sharing what happened from something that you didn't realize was dangerous that could have killed you quite frankly. And then you go everywhere looking for help. But the problem with that is help can't be found in the world. And we don't know, like help can't be found here. And yes, there's some great preachers and priests and people that we trust and all of that help can only be found through God.
And here's the secret God's word, right? Ashley? Because it clearly States I was looking up some verses, as you were speaking about repenting. And it said first John verse one through nine, if you guys want to go read that. But basically if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just, and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. Another acts three 19 repent then, and turn to God so that your sins may be wiped out. That times of refreshing may come from the Lord. Ashley said, she's not feeling the warfare. Yes, we feel warfare. Okay. We're again, humans. How many times I've got to say that here, but the refreshing of the Holy spirit now, and it's a piece and it's a good, and we are in control of our body and our mind. We have sound minds, sound, bodies, sound, hearts, sound, decision making.
We are at peace. Yeah. Spiritually attacked. I felt it this morning. Especially I feel when I'm going to share there's some odd stuff that happens. And even with my last video I recorded the sound happened to not work where things happen and people can just say whatever, but there's also spiritual things that I feel because I'm sharing this and it's a lot of people may not believe it, but I have no reason to lie. There's no, no way that I enjoy discussing the horrible place that I was in the horrible things I was doing, the wicked person. I was the covetousness that I had in my heart thinking I can help people. As through speaking with the dead loved worm, like God is, he is our healer. He's our doctor, he's our counselor. He is who I should have turned to for my kidney disease. He is who I should have turned to for all my life will, I should have asked him his will. And I didn't. Yeah, but now I do.
And so I wanted Ashley to share that with you guys, not to scare you because I understand that that is scary. And it's also very scary if you have been dabbling, right. Because I used to say, yoga is fine. You guys just go to yoga and pray over God's word while you do it. And the Enneagram is fine because it helps you understand your clients and whatever, but I don't feel that way anymore. I don't feel that way anymore because I see how slippery that slope can be. And especially if you are not spiritually mature in your walk with Christ, that is even more dangerous for you. We actually were going to go do a yoga thing, Ashley, this next weekend. Rido. So my mother-in-law's like I bought a four, it's a private yoga lesson. And I reached out to some of my spiritual sisters and I was like, guys, I feel really weird about that.
And I don't know how to get out of it. I was like, I'm just going to pretend to have diarrhea. And then I don't have to go, Tracy, you know, from the other series shield thou shall not lie, Stephanie. And I was like, okay, there's some stuff that's for God's glory for God's glory. And so I wrote my mother in law and I was like, Hey. And I sent her Ashley's testimony video and was like, I don't really think yoga is a great idea. It's just too, too slippery of a slope. And she was like, I'm with you. She cancelled it glory. Be to God, bring it to God because he'll find a way like, we cannot be ignorant. We cannot, yeah. He will convict us. And I, and I pray over certain things and like, and I, I get it. I have a very close relationship with God right now.
And like, I hear answers quickly. It didn't used to be that way. I would feel and seek and seek and ask and ask. And, but the closer you, the clearer, the channels become, I'm sure Ashley, you can attest to that. Like I asked a question this morning about something that my husband and I were arguing over last night, who times two times I heard the same verse that answered the question directly. Yes. The next morning. But it came through a year of really growing into relationship. So why do you want to say, well, your story, do the girls need to hear about being aware, staying positive when all of these truths are being revealed and they feel like the weight is crushing when they feel like, what do I do with this information? Ladies, help me help myself here. Cause this is a lot. What do you want to say to them? Well, I want this.
Say that Matthew six 24 and one Corinthians 10 21 speaks volumes. We cannot serve two masters. We cannot sit at the table of Jesus and the table of demons. You are with one or with the other, and you do need to make a choice. It is a very Russ place to start when people question who Jesus is, but I can say that he gives us many ways to seek him the first being the word of God. And that is, you know, where we can find the armor of God and put on his armor and use his sword, the word of God. And you can read about that in Ephesians. And we're covered by the blood of Jesus. You know, Buddha didn't die for me. Nobody else died for me, but Jesus and his blood is so Holy and precious. And I pray that it protects me and my family all the time.
Also us as believers, we have the Holy spirit. So the Holy spirit who dwells and lives in us gives us that authority and that protection. And of course prayer, like we can talk to God all the time, anytime, anywhere about anything. And we need to take advantage of that. And like you said, grow your connection with God. Because when I was doing what I was doing, I was told by a spiritual teacher that when I clear my mind, I'm clearing a path. And what you said earlier was a channel and people channel these spirits. I cleared a path for Satan by not using God's word. Now I fill my mind with God's word and I speak to him. If I meditate on his word, I just think of his word. I'm focused on what he is telling me. And there's a huge difference in that. And I feel like that is what people can take from this video is that we can serve both the world and the Lord, like we do have to choose and the Holy spirit will help you. And he'll reveal things too, if you keep asking, and there are things that I've prayed for four months and
Then received an answer and it's worth the wait. So sometimes it doesn't come overnight. And sometimes even to where I'm at spiritually connected to God with my relationship with God, my answers don't always come so quick. Even though I think most of the time I get, I get that no from him right away, but yes or no right away. But we have to have patience and it's worth waiting for him. Hey man, friend I'm. So with all of that, so pray take it to God. If you have any kind of strangeness, it's like a gut feeling, at least for me, it's like this Holy spirit intuition, that something isn't right, that you are doing saying someone you're working with someone you're following something. You're saying it's a business that you're promoting a product you're promoting anything and everything. Take it to God pray. And if you don't know how to pray, you just open your mouth.
Sister, Holy spirit will guide you and you do it every day, all day. I'm the crazy lady all day long in the car, hand up at homeless people, people think I'm nuts and I don't care. I don't care because I'm like, if I can be the channel for people, a godly channel in a world full of Satan's channels, I'm going to be it because God has called us to be that right. We are called to be the salt and the light. And we have the blood of Christ on us protecting us. And so you guys step up, step into it and it starts to taking control of yourself. What are you doing? That's me, myself and I, and worldly. That needs to go let it go so that you can become who Christ is asking you to be. And it begins with letting go of these worldly things that we have validated.
We have validated that they are okay. But I think that you truly know, and God will show you and convict you that maybe something you're doing is not okay. Just like he has me recently. K, we are all in this together. We are all learning and growing, but you are listening to this episode on purpose. So maybe there's something you needed to hear. I'm going to bet that there was something you needed to take away from this. If you've been led here to hear Ashley and I, whether this be on her YouTube channel or on my podcast, know that we are here with you. If you guys need a prayer, please pop into my inbox. Please message. Get in touch with Ashley. She's going to share that with you in a moment, we would love to pray with you. If there's any of you that need guidance or just to chat, we're here for you. Both of us, we are here for you. God gave us this platform. Not so we can talk to you and be little or judge, but so that we can lift you up, wrap you in his glory and then direct you to maybe some scripture that can help you through it. So we're here to support you. Ashley, thank you. This has been so fun. I'm so grateful that you were brave enough to come share such an incredible story of God's redemption and his forgiveness and his glory, and know that you're doing work, that
He's asked you to do, even when it's hard and scary all praise to God. He, you know, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me the first verse I learned ever. And you know, I seek God's will, and I, I encourage people to do the same. If you are confused, if you don't know what to believe, if you are struggling, if you're in the middle of new age or other belief systems seek God's will for your life and don't stop until you. So you have a hundred percent his answer because he will tell you he will.
All right, sister, Fran, where can everybody find you and hang out with you and get in touch with you?
Well my YouTube channel, it's actually the NDAA I don't have. I'm not like running a business or anything. Then the regular person, a mama and alive, and I just have a YouTube channel. So if you want to watch my videos and get some more details if you want to email me, it's, it's Ash fab. Deanda@Gmail.Com, which is also listed in the description of my emails. And I'd be happy to pray for people as Steph said, and speak with one another and discuss what you're going through and help as much as I can. And you guys, all of that info is in the show notes. If you want the links, they'll be here for you. Alright, love God, bless you. Thank you for blessing us with your time this morning and love you. Thank you. Love you so much. Wow.
I hope that you guys took away so much from that episode and that your mind is probably blown. Just like mine was the first time I heard Ashley's story, but God has done a work through her and he did not bring her here on accident. So in this next five minutes, stick with me. I just want to wrap this up full circle for you guys. I know this episode was long, but it was so necessary. I was really just praying over what and how I could bring this to a close for you. Four episodes of truth, just full on, poured out from my story to Heather's story then to Tracy's story. And then finally, to Ashley's story. What do you do with all that? I think God really did a work here to have us just open our eyes. I think if you were, if I were to tell you, what do you do with this?
My takeaway from all of this is that you gotta be aware, you've got to be awake. You've got to be partnered with what Jesus wants for your life. And yes, this is a business podcast, but this is also a life podcast and everything that we have and everything that we do is from Christ sisters. Yes. Yes. So let's get back to that and make sure that we are doing it all. Christ's way that we are awake and aware of what the world is, deceiving us by what the world is telling us to be true. And instead of just blindly following blindly, blindly accepting that we first bring it to God, pray and ask for discernment and awareness over what is not godly. And then that we are brave enough sisters, brave enough to take a stand against the things in ourselves and in our lives with our kids, with our spouses, with our businesses, whatever it may be that we're willing to lay it down because we are here not to please, man, no sisters, but to please God.
And that all begins here. It all begins. Now it begins with what you took away from this series. It begins with you. And this morning I was led to the second book of Timothy and there's many screenshots that I took. But one of the verses that really stood out to me is second Timothy verse 19. But God's truth stands from like a foundation stone with this inscription. The Lord knows those who are his and all who belong to the Lord must turn away from evil. Whoa. I mean, for God to just bring that straight to me this morning, when I was praying over what to share with you guys, but God's truth stands from like a foundation stone with this inscription. Basically what I took from this is that the direction is clear, right? The,
Yeah, these specific.
City of that birth, if that's a word of do, this is extraordinarily clear from like a foundation of stone, with eight inscription on it. The Lord knows those who are his? Are you his, if you're his all, but who belonged to the Lord must turn away from evil. And so for us, we have to know what is evil and that begins with asking him, ask God, get in your Bibles, sisters begin to pray. Then once you have kind of worked through that on your own becomes the next call that I think we as kingdom soldiers have, which is again from second Timothy, 25, gently instruct those who oppose the truth. Perhaps God will change those people's hearts and they will learn the truth. Then they will come to their senses and escape from the devil's trap for, they have been held captive by him to do whatever he wants that second Timothy verse 25, and then verse 26, they have been killed, held captive.
So to me that second calling mess. Second thing that I'm taking away from this series is that sure I can be changed, but I want to be changed so that I can change others. And, and how do we change others? We gently instruct gently instruct. And then he says, perhaps God will change their heart. Not you, not me. We don't have that power, but God may change their heart so they can escape. Did you hear that escape from the devil's trap? They've been held captive. We've got to pray over those that are captive. We've got to pray over those who don't know yet about God's truth. I think we heard a similar story through all of the stories here in the true seeker series. And that was, we didn't know. We didn't know, but not knowing is not an excuse for not waking up to it for not seeing and sisters.
Once you see, you will never unsee. You've heard me say that you will never unsee. You will never want to look away from the true light ever again because the light of the world turns dark turns dim. It burns out, but the light of Christ and the light of the right way, it Bryant, it shines brighter and brighter and it shines for eternity. And that's the kind of light that I'm chasing. What kind of light are you chasing? Let's pray, Lord. I lift up everyone listening to this episode right now. Thank you for bringing us this true seeker series. God, thank you for bringing me the women who inspired us through this series, who shared, who were brave.
And for everyone that has gotten something from this that they so desperately needed in their mind, in their heart, in their spirit. And they found that connection with you that maybe they had been been missing. And I pray for those that haven't that you continue to do a work in them, God, to reveal your truth, your good, honest, and forever truth into their lives. Businesses, relationships, marriages, everywhere, because you are everything and you are everywhere. And we know that you are here with us and for us today, tomorrow, and every single day forever. And we choose you. We are thankful. We love you. We trust you God in Jesus' name. Amen.
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